Hey, I'll post here some pics I've taken and some, some things I've done and other stuff from a more introspective part of my life. Do not hesitate to send a message or add me on Facebook, especially if you're a cute boy XD XD XD

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There’s something worse than loneliness… It’s when you found your way out of it, but you live in constant fear of getting back to being lonely.

Sometimes I wonder if my boyfriend thinks I’m hot enough. I wonder if he wishes those model type guys out there were his boyfriend… Tough… I realized that, in general, people stick around because of things I can provide, and I feel his different… I feel he really likes ME… And I try my best to be and look cool… But sometimes I just wish I were one of those blond model type guys…

I must learn how not to depend on others to feel OK… I’m feeling so lonely, I woke up feeling like cutting, doing drugs, drinking, crying, killing myself… Everything I was trying to leave behind… Although I don’t know if it was such a good idea to leave those habits behind…

I need to get used to the fact that I am always the one who loves and cares more…

I wish I could date someone who used to cut… Maybe he’d understand me…

I wish I could date someone who used to cut… Maybe he’d understand me…

I don’t understand why loneliness still bothers me so much once I’m so used to it…

So… All demons who follow me are against me now….

I had to delete most of my pictures for professional reasons… But anyway… /=

There’s no worse feeling than trying to die and not being successful…

I should stop waiting for someone to fix me and accept that, maybe, I’ll have to learn how to live with the fact I’ll be broken forever…

Friend: Are you OK?

Me: Yep.

Friend: But you're drinking more than ever.

Me: Yeah... It's what's keeping me OK... It kills my feelings, so they don't kill me.

This is some improv I did when I was 15…. Found it recently by chance, looking for some other stuff XDXDimprov